New Priorities

Now that it’s summer, I don’t have to deal with pesky school XD No more homework and no more stupid “friend drama.” I always use summer as a time to re-prioritize. So here they are, in descending order of importance:

College/Violin – This is my last stretch before auditions, so I’m gonna work my BUTT off. I’m gonna try to be ready by early auditions (December) so I have a better chance of getting in. That means PRACTICING A LOT. And now I have the time   This really means the world to me…this is the first step towards the rest of my life.

Work – I’m starting my new job at the movie theater on Wednesday. I dunno if I’m gonna keep my job at Quiznos. The movie theater should be better anyway because, not only will they give me more hours, but there are lots of kids close to my age working there. Unlike Quiznos, where I work with a bunch of people in their mid-twenties. Don’t get me wrong…they’re cool, but I can’t actually make friends with them and hang out with them because that would be weird and my mom would kill me O.o ANYWAY, I need to pay off the violin, help with college, and help with a car, so this is really important

Family – I’m going to be leaving home in about a year, and I’ve been taking my family for granted for the past seventeen years O_O I really just want to be there for them as much as I can while I’m still around. I’ve already started helping out more because my mom went back to school at the beginning of this month and she needs someone to do housework and watch my brother, Matthew. Speaking of Matthew, I really want to better my relationship with him while I’m still home. He and I have never gotten along too well, given that he’s almost nine years younger than I am. I just don’t want to go off to college yo have him forget about me or be happy because I was mean to him :p I also really want to be there for him because he’s going to public school next year. He doesn’t show it, but he’s really scared, and I want him to know that he can count on me when he can’t count on his friends and when our parents wouldn’t understand. To sum it all up, I’ve been a really crappy sister, and I want to change that so he doesn’t remember me that way.

Body image/self-esteem – This past year I hit rock bottom with the eating disorder.  I’m much better now, and I intend to improve even more…or at least keep things the way they’ve been.  I’m not going to compare myself with others, and I’m going to make an effort to make myself look pretty.  I’m not going to subject myself to bad treatment by myself or others.  I deserve the best.

Health – Like I said, I’ve just recently begun to recover from an eating disorder, so this isn’t so much about weight as it is about nutrition.  Since before the eating disorder, I’ve had issues with eating right.  I want to work to fix that so I can be happy.

“New” Friends – I need new friends. Lol. I can’t really go into detail without hurting anyone’s feelings, so yeah. I’m going to try to hang out with new people.  I’m not going to completely ditch my old friends, but I need a fresh start.  I want to hang out more with people like Bene, Lili, Susy, Evan, and Andrew (not really a new friend, but still).