My lesson
July 13, 2008
I just got home a little while ago from my lesson.
It actually went pretty well! The journaling helped a lot.
Lately I’ve been going into my lessons with such anxiety. I dread them. I used to get excited about getting help and moving on in the music. Now I just get scared that I’m going to mess up or break down again. Which is ridiculous, because it’s just a lesson. Still. Today I kind of realized that everything is fine :p I need to give myself more credit for what I’ve done over the course of the week.
Hah, I also mentioned the stuff about performance anxiety to Amy. She said I should play for my friends and stuff. She was telling me that my mindset had to be like, “It’s just notes. Just do it. I don’t care if Alissa [the girl who had a lesson next] is in the room. I don’t care if Perlman is standing right there.”
…I would care if Perlman were right there XD
My 6th day of CMC is tomorrow. I’m trying to get my hands on that Blue Rondo string quartet sheet music before CMC ends. Nngh o__o”
By the way, A SUPER-FAMOUS MUSICIAN lives in my town, and I JUST found out this afternoon on the way home from Amy’s. Ew, stalkers. Anyway, my dad was all “oh, yeah, he did some performance at the library and everything.” And I JUST realized that we have a room in the library named after him. Whaaaaat?!
So yeah, I’m definitely going to keep an eye out for this guy’s events in town. Jeeeez, why didn’t I know this BEFORE he performed in the spring?! *sigh*
P.S. Please don’t stalk me. Please…?
