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Violin and whatnot

I had my first college audition last Saturday, and I have to say it went VERY well, contrary to my previous thoughts about the event.

The whole car ride up the night before, I was shouting vehemently at myself to stop worrying.  It’s a technique my violin teacher gave me.  Hahahaha, it sounds a little mean, but it actually works.  DON’T EVEN GO THERE.  YOU KNOW YOUR MUSIC.  JUST FOCUS AND QUIT BEING A BABY, RAAARHGHGHKH.  You get the gist.

So finally when we actually got to our hotel after 7 hours of getting caught in blizzards and being confused by incompent mapquest directions, I was way too exhausted to even think about being nervous.  But I was pretty hackin’ irked because my right ear was all botched up from the change in atmospheric pressure or whatever on the way up, and also because my mom snored really loudly all night.  And getting irked is a bad thing, especially when I’m in such a volatile state of nervousness.  Any sort of intense emotion can set me off.

We got up bright and early to register.  I was okay throughout breakfast and registration.  They had donuts, so I had one and that calmed me down.  After getting all my stuff together, my mom and I continued on to an orientation-type assembly.

And that was when all hell broke loose.

A little while after we sat down, my mind got antsy and had nothing to think about except FREAKING OUT.  I tried to relax and listen to the jazz band, but it was getting me a little worked up because everything they played was really upbeat and like… scurrying.  They were phenomenal, I was just not in a good state of mind xD  So then I tried yelling at myself again, but that failed because my utter exhaustion from only getting six hours of sleep the night before kicked in.  And then I just got really sick to my stomach.  And I’m not talking butterflies in the stomach or nervous tummy twisting.  I’m talking about being legitimately nauseated to the point where I was trying really hard not to gag and retch… LOL.

I went to find a practice room so I could warm up, and my mom was all “you’re making this more than it needs to be,” and I was like SHUT UP, I’M NOT NERVOUS!!!  because I was seriously trying to convince myself that, even though it was a complete lie.  So then she left and I looked in the mirror and I looked ghostly and ill.  But I felt better after practicing for a while.

Then I had my sight singing exam, which I would not have even been able to attempt had I decided not to take AP music theory this year.  I botched a few things up, but I think I did pretty well for the most part.  I’m sure there were tons of kids who had no idea what they were doing.  I’m not saying that as an insult.  I was one of those kids a little less than a year ago.  So that small succees gave me a little boost of confidence, and I headed to my audition.

While I was waiting for my turn, I sat outside the room cross-legged on the floor and closed my eyes and just breathed and tried not to think about anything.  My mind is overactive so I couldn’t really clear it, but it did help me relax.  Then it was my turn.

I got up, went in, played the first part of each of my pieces, talked a little with the adjudicator, and BAM.  It was over.  That was it.

All that freaking out for ten minutes or less playing the easiest excerpts from songs I’ve been playing for months for a really nice lady.

Let this be a lesson to you; no, I’m not going to tell you not to flip out.  Because you will freak out when you don’t know what to expect.  I promise you that.  What I want to tell you is that the best way to overcome your fears is to face them.  No matter how much you prepare, you will never know all there is to know.  When it comes down to it, you just have to buckle down and do whatever it is you need to do because most of the issues come from being worried about the unknown.

Hopefully next Saturday when I have my next audition I won’t freak myself out so much   Wish me luck!